Disappear

So these last couple weeks I have heard a recurrent lesson it seems.
I have never thought of myself of a proud person and yet today I have stumbled on the fact that I am sooo proud. I think so highly of myself that I think I am a humble person, funny to say out loud, but unfortunately a fact. I often think why have I yet to have a boyfriend I am an awesome person, these men are missing out on something special. God has whispered something to me over and over again...Replace the I in that phrase with God and proclaim it to the world. God is awesome and people are missing out on something special!

Lately I have been telling myself, I want to be more spontaneous, I want to do this, I want to do that...Thinking about the things that I want I see they all were about elevating myself. Making me feel better about myself, others looking at me and thinking they want what I have...but not in a good way. I had always loved the quote in the movie The Holiday where Kate Winslet's character talks about how shes not even the main character in her own life and talking about taking the lead in her story. I always thought "yeah I need to step up and stop being the supporting actress or the prop in someone else's grand  story and be the main character!" Well wouldn't ya know that I heard another lesson this week that told me...really do you really want to control your life and make it all about you? Shouldn't God be the main charcter in our life. Less of me and more of Him. He afterall is the Creator of everyone's story, the Director, the Set Designer ( I could go on, but you get my point) So why shouldn't He be the main character He has the lines memorized and the control to change the lines and scene. So who better to control your life than the one that knows it's future.

Reading Crazy Love has been eye opening book for me. Although there are a lot of things in this book that God has revealed to me, (I basically could highlight the whole book (must read)) this last chapter has spoken to me the most in my newest revelation. Pg 138- "A person who is obsessed with Jesus knows that the sin of pride is always a battle. Obsessed people know that you can never be 'humble enough,' and so they seek to make themselves less known and Christ more known. (Matt. 5:16)."
-My challenge this week will be to do just this- make myself less known and Christ more known! 

So What better song to round out the lessons of my life thus far than the good old bebo norman's Disappear.  Until the next time may you enjoy the thrills and frills of this life....

Beauty In the Breakdown

French Word of the day...aperçu.

For those of you like me who don't really know french except what you may have learned from your nephew's baby einstein or the random french movies you've seen- this is a word that the french use to speak of a glimpse-an insight or a summary. So perfect way to start a blog about me with a glimpse, an insight, a summary of myself and what to expect. I graduated in May of this year. In some way this seems like just yesterday, but in the ways I feel I have grown so much that it seems like it has been years since I was in college. Two of the most important things to me...God and Music. If everything in this world was gone I know I would still always have God. He is the only one who will ever know me completely. I have an overstated passion for music. My dad has been in a Christian acapella group since I was born and both my parents have introduced so many types of music to me growing up. Because of my parents I feel I have been well versed in my two favorite things God and music. So this blog is going to most likely ensue around these two things the majority of the time. 

Today...I wish I was artsy. I have never thought of myself as one of those people who are super creative all the time. Instead I thrive on others creativeness. So my great idea is to start my own creative story. Each day I am going to have a theme song (everyone should have a theme song for the day) or a song to explain my day/current feelings/frustrations/joys/successes/failures/etc. So today's song would have to be...Frou Frou: Let Go

Okay So enough of my scatterbrained beginnings to this blog...

Until next time enjoy the thrills and frills of this life!  

	(Photograph: Jerry Uelsmann)