So these last couple weeks I have heard a recurrent lesson it seems.
I have never thought of myself of a proud person and yet today I have stumbled on the fact that I am sooo proud. I think so highly of myself that I think I am a humble person, funny to say out loud, but unfortunately a fact. I often think why have I yet to have a boyfriend I am an awesome person, these men are missing out on something special. God has whispered something to me over and over again...Replace the I in that phrase with God and proclaim it to the world. God is awesome and people are missing out on something special!
Lately I have been telling myself, I want to be more spontaneous, I want to do this, I want to do that...Thinking about the things that I want I see they all were about elevating myself. Making me feel better about myself, others looking at me and thinking they want what I have...but not in a good way. I had always loved the quote in the movie The Holiday where Kate Winslet's character talks about how shes not even the main character in her own life and talking about taking the lead in her story. I always thought "yeah I need to step up and stop being the supporting actress or the prop in someone else's grand story and be the main character!" Well wouldn't ya know that I heard another lesson this week that told me...really do you really want to control your life and make it all about you? Shouldn't God be the main charcter in our life. Less of me and more of Him. He afterall is the Creator of everyone's story, the Director, the Set Designer ( I could go on, but you get my point) So why shouldn't He be the main character He has the lines memorized and the control to change the lines and scene. So who better to control your life than the one that knows it's future.
Reading Crazy Love has been eye opening book for me. Although there are a lot of things in this book that God has revealed to me, (I basically could highlight the whole book (must read)) this last chapter has spoken to me the most in my newest revelation. Pg 138- "A person who is obsessed with Jesus knows that the sin of pride is always a battle. Obsessed people know that you can never be 'humble enough,' and so they seek to make themselves less known and Christ more known. (Matt. 5:16)."
-My challenge this week will be to do just this- make myself less known and Christ more known!
So What better song to round out the lessons of my life thus far than the good old bebo norman's Disappear. Until the next time may you enjoy the thrills and frills of this life....
